I'm tired of being exceedingly overweight. I'm tired of my back hurting. I'm tired of my feet hurting. I'm tired of struggling to put on my shoes. I'm tired of being tired.
I've been fat ever since I can remember. When I was a baby I was definitely fat. There are pictures of me when I was six where I wasn't fat, but then I remember being tormented by my “peers” in third grade. So what happened?
Although now when I look at some pictures I could cry because the child I see was not really that fat. She is now.
I started Weight Watchers on 8/11/2003 – weigh in was 291.8 lbs. I didn't like the Monday meeting, so I switched to Tuesday. Weigh in yesterday was 286.8 lbs – I lost 5 pounds, yay!
It hasn't been too bad so far. The biggest problems for me is eating breakfast, and drinking enough water.
My first goal weight is the 10% body weight goal – 262 lbs. Twenty four pounds to go!
This time it feels different. Somehow this time I feel that I'm ready, that I can lose the weight. I hope that's true. The skeptic in me is tapping her foot saying, “I'll believe it when I see it.”
We'll see.